It was back several years ago when I already had this little plans with little steps to take - pretty much I was feeling good to where I was going. Those plans were actually not much. They are just pointers on how to live a normal life in where I was.
I already knew her then. I already saw her picture. OK. The reason why I know her is actually unusual. She was just there, thinking that she would not be a significant part in my life. I had my life going as planned, and pretty much the same went for her. She equally knew me, and most likely her mind was running the same thoughts.
I knew I was going to meet her. Moments before actually seeing her, I felt like "let's just get this over with so we can have our own lives back." She could not be one amazing girl who could stop me from my tracks.
Then we met. Face to face. From then, everything has changed.
Now, we have our separate lives (or maybe for her, this has been always the case) for several years, she has still been running in my mind. I don't know how to trash my thoughts of her, because they just keep coming back to me, haunting my mind until my last conscious thought.
I already knew her then. I already saw her picture. OK. The reason why I know her is actually unusual. She was just there, thinking that she would not be a significant part in my life. I had my life going as planned, and pretty much the same went for her. She equally knew me, and most likely her mind was running the same thoughts.
I knew I was going to meet her. Moments before actually seeing her, I felt like "let's just get this over with so we can have our own lives back." She could not be one amazing girl who could stop me from my tracks.
Then we met. Face to face. From then, everything has changed.
Now, we have our separate lives (or maybe for her, this has been always the case) for several years, she has still been running in my mind. I don't know how to trash my thoughts of her, because they just keep coming back to me, haunting my mind until my last conscious thought.
I'd always subtly greet her in her birthday - never missed one since the day I met her. But she'd only thank me when there's more than just a greeting. :(
I know she is very happy now. She may be busy with alot of things right now, but I know she is happy. I may not know what her thoughts are, I may now know how she is entirely doing right now, but I know she is happy.
Why did she have to be that amazing? Why DOES she have to be that amazing? We both know we haven't talked for a long time, but what really puzzles me is why is still she in my mind ALL ALONG? Yes, a couple of occassions I grab these chances to give her a little something that she'd always find sweet. But, damn I am yearning to do so much more for her.
Does she still remember our last encounter? Would she remember her actions if (given the chance) I ask her those things? Does she ever reminisce about those times? And if she ever, did she feel positive about it?
I truly miss her. I don't know what this is, but this is definitely VERY strong positive feelings for her that has endured over the years. BUT I can't do anything about it (well not entirely nothing - there's VERY LITTLE hope in this. It's painful, but sometimes it gives me a great feeling. I am not sure - is this supposed to be a pursuit, or am I serving some bad luck?
I know she is very happy now. She may be busy with alot of things right now, but I know she is happy. I may not know what her thoughts are, I may now know how she is entirely doing right now, but I know she is happy.
Why did she have to be that amazing? Why DOES she have to be that amazing? We both know we haven't talked for a long time, but what really puzzles me is why is still she in my mind ALL ALONG? Yes, a couple of occassions I grab these chances to give her a little something that she'd always find sweet. But, damn I am yearning to do so much more for her.
Does she still remember our last encounter? Would she remember her actions if (given the chance) I ask her those things? Does she ever reminisce about those times? And if she ever, did she feel positive about it?
I truly miss her. I don't know what this is, but this is definitely VERY strong positive feelings for her that has endured over the years. BUT I can't do anything about it (well not entirely nothing - there's VERY LITTLE hope in this. It's painful, but sometimes it gives me a great feeling. I am not sure - is this supposed to be a pursuit, or am I serving some bad luck?
Happy Valentines to you.
