Ready. Set. Waiting for the Green Light.

After several years, I have finally marked it official. I am finally meeting her soon, and I know exactly when, where and around what time. I am making myself ready for that very moment, and everything after that. For whatever happens, I hope everything will be ok.

Just as we parted ways years ago, while my resolve was hanging by a very sharp edge fervently watching out her every message she would send me in very rare occasions, I learned that a few years after that we would meet again. That exactly was not in my control, but of course I looked forward for it. At nights that I would daydream just imagining how things would be on our next "expected" meeting. That went on for quite a long time while I wait for that day.

But things took an unexpected turn. On a bad road. In other words, I wouldn't meet her again. Try to imagine how I felt at that exact moment when I realized that. I know around that time our separate lives have gone separate ways. But nonetheless, I felt that sting in my heart.

Being bound to a promise I made before (not to her), but not saying I was in some kind of a control, I took matters in my own hands. And right at this moment, I am very happy and excited that somehow I have put myself back in that track again, and even more thinking about that it was all my doing that made that possible. I took control, then soon will be taking off.

Well, not really much things needed for me to be done to make this possible. Just have to cut a big part of one's savings depending on your current financial standing, a little bit of patience and time. I think strength of resolve and a big heart are also needed.

Now, I have the same thing to be looked forward again. Maybe in a different setup, but it's the same thing.

Oh boy, am I so ready to meet her again. We've lost a lot of time, and we're about to unfold how much lost time we will get back.

Hand me the rake!

Finally, the first part of the plan has finally unfolded! Within just a matter of some weeks, I will be seeing her face to face. After several years, our eyes will meet again. Nobody else is excited as I am right now.

I had a very short conversation with her this afternoon. Just via SMS. It's pretty much related to a paragraph in the entry 'The Pursuit?' (http://secret--lover.blogspot.com/2009/02/pursuit.html). Pretty much what I wrote there is still true when I am to describe our conversation earlier.

But she just had to make the recognition that it has been years since we last met. Well, she knows that she will soon see me. I myself confirmed it to her, just simply how a person confirms meeting to another person of a colleague or professional level.

Is she wondering how things would unfold from the very first moment we meet again? How does she entirely feel about this? It's not that I am expecting something really grand from her (and because I have a few good reasons why I shouldn't), but how about picking up the slack we left off some years ago, then throw them all away IN THE PROPER PLACE? Or would she realize this 'slack' we both caused (at least to me) or not?

Well, we will just have to wait and find out.

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Just a side note, this blog is nearing its last entry. Once this blog serves its purpose, I will post my last entry.

P7: "Then I glance..."

If my memory serves me right, this is the first entry that I made wherein she was like a tad away while I was doing this part of the prequel. So let me just describe, as I can remember, how we looked like at that exact moment - I was lying on the sofa doing this stuff while she was on the other sofa reading a book, which I did not try to check out for its title.

Honestly, that seventh entry of the prequel was composed of hell of a lot of non sense. Try to imagine that it was the first time that I wrote some things down about this girl who was making my heart go ga-ga over her and she was just within my line and range of sight. Nothing can make me more disoriented than that! I couldn't hold on to my concentration with that.

I glance, then I write, then I glance again.

Let's try to take this one in another picture. A bigger one, maybe. I hope everyone admits (as I believe a large percentage of our population who would encounter a similar situation would feel this way) that you will be caught off guard whenever your crush or a person whom you highly like in a romantic way just suddenly appears in your sight.

How can you instantly make sense when something like this happens to you? How can you regain your composure in the quickest way possible?

As humans, we may all have different reactions to this. Some may really go crazy out loud; some may seem to appear unaffected. Some may need to put a great deal of concentration on this; some may just ignore it. But we all deal with this, no matter you're a guy or a girl. No matter how our ubiquitous "methodologies" serve us.

If you have followed this blog from the start, I am sure you know this part of my story very well, and just try to imagine me and her at that exact point in time. Just try to imagine how I was feeling at that very moment when I was doing this entry in the prequel. I really love that moment - trying to hide away my feelings for her and the only thing where I can say these feelings out loud was through the prequel.

And with her just nearby while I did that, I could never resist myself from glancing to her. Just wanted to peek how she looked like at that moment while she was reading this book.

Output? Nonsense. And I truly like it.

Bouncing Up and Down

This is but a very short post.

It's simple. the note blocks in Super Mario Brothers 3 (Nintendo, Super Nintendo, GBA) would always remind me my trampoline moments with her. See video below where the note blocks are featured from 0:10 to 1:48.

So, wanna bounce?