REWIND!!!

First of all, I would like to apologize to all those few people who are following my blog for being horrendously delayed in making my this new entry. It is not because I have absolutely nothing in mind for me to write, but in all honesty, this has been more than a month due (October 22) because that day marks a certain point in my life's history some years back. I have been absolutely upset for not being able to do this entry on that date, because I had been planning to do so. I had been so busy in a lot of errands. And thankfully, now I got the time to do it, and more thankfully, I am in the mood to do this. Here it is. So just try to imagine that this entry was made last October 22, 2009. This is just a short one. Enjoy!
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On this day several years back, that was the first time we met. One of the most unexpected turns in my whole life. I was in the room, hearing that they had finally arrived. I knew nothing special was going to occur. So I got myself ready, just as how I would do it in any normal occasion. I didn't do anything to myself to look hopelessly better, to make myself more presentable, nor to make myself smell even better.

Then there she was - unexpectedly like a ray of sunshine in my sight. As I have mentioned in this blog a lot of times already, she looked so stunning in with her little eyes in those black frames. Now I wonder, how my face looked like at that very moment.

I was never a person to share my thoughts on crushes on pretty girls with my siblings. Perhaps, there'd always be a first. And for this one, that was the first. I was telling my brother and sister that she was damn so pretty, that she'd stand out to be one of the prettiest if she were to study in my university where I was studying (now graduated), and I told them that without hesitation.

I couldn't exactly tell what my siblings were thinking of me when I told them that. But, I didn't care. I know.

I still can vividly remember those special times that we had - whether it had been good or bad. She had a very great power over me, and how I wonder how much she had realized that. I might have been someone to her that half of it wasn't really me. But I do regret that I honestly did not make the most of it.

I really did not have the chance to tell her how much she had lighted up my life for the entire time we were together, and I cannot blame her for equally dimming me out when we parted ways. I can't imagine myself that I really cried so hard because of her - probably the most painful one in my entire life.

I'd always put myself to rewind mode in some ways - reading up the prequel (http://secret--lover.blogspot.com/2009/04/prequel.html), walking down the memory lane (http://secret--lover.blogspot.com/2009/10/down-on-memory-lane.html), reading our old emails shortly after we parted ways, checking up our pictures together, etc. They give me more than the feeling of nostalgia. And I can't help but think that it has been years already, and these times of the year will always be instruments to remind me of those times.

So guys, if you can remember me very well in the future, pop me at the comings dates of October 22nd.